Yesterday, I went to Barnes and Noble as I often do, because I like reading things when people don’t make me (cough cough English class) and I’m usually down with the Teen Vogue and Seventeen, but once I started going to Barnes and Noble more often, I couldn’t keep waiting for the next Teen Vogue or Seventeen to come out, so I discovered other magazines like Nylon for example. NOTE: NYLON IS BASICALLY ONE OF THE THINGS I LIVE FOR NOW. I also discovered magazines that have pretty editorials that are from out of the country that are shipped to Barnes and Noble like MUSE and PURPLE magazines, yesterday since I’d b asically read everything that I wanted to in the fashion section, I went over to the music section, and I discovered TOKION magazine, which has music and fashion and these amazing photos and FMS, (Fashion, Music, Style). This
is similar to Tokion but a little smaller and is more music related and WAX POETICS, to whom I give credit for taking my hip hop virginity, this magazine is just mostly about hip hop music. I sat in Barnes and Noble and read through the magazines and some of the stuff that was in them I thought was so interesting that I got out a pen and a napkin and started taking notes on some of the music that I wanted to listen to or rappers that I was gonna look up on Youtube or and some photographers that I wanted to look up. So then I left Barnes and Noble and had to go to Pathmark and while I was shopping with my mom and my siblings, I started to lose my mind a little because I had eaten about 100 jelly bellies that day, true story, those jelly beans are amazing. And I started spazzing out in the store and dancing to the 80s music that they were blasting while playing air guitar with a spaghetti sauce jar, by the time we left Pathmark and got home, since I was high off jelly beans I didn’t realize that I had LOST my napkin with all the wo
nderful notes I took, if you’re thinking “Florence it’s just a napkin” then you don’t know how it feels to work hard on something and lose it, and--- well you know what WHO ASKED YOU? CAUSE IT WASN’T JUST A NAPKIN, CAUSE I WROTE ON IT, TWO AND A HALF NAPKIN PAGES. And because I can’t STAY FOCUSED EVER, I LOST MY NAPKIN, the same way I lost my chance for going to lake placid because I lost my focus and didn’t want to learn geometry so now I’m in SUMMER SCHOOL, the same way I lose my money shopping because I don’t know how to save and invest in my fucking future, the same way I lose Metrocards because I don’t realize how important they are as the portal between home and school, between life and knowledge and I can’t just I – I can’t just do anything right and I can’t focus and it’s just, it’s just a problem. What a coincidence that I’m listening to Made You Look by Nas, have a listen… “they shooting, oh I made you look you a slave to a page in my rhyme book” well, to be quite honest, if someone was shooting, I probably would look instead of focusing on running and then I would be killed, and you know what would happen?... I’ll tell you, I’d LOSE my fucking life.
Peace, love and focus. Your fave bamf flo, whose blog keeps her sane.
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